Do you ever have a day that just makes you feel like you suck at life? Yeah, that was yesterday. Nothing huge or terrible happened, but a series of little things just beat down my confidence and put me in a bit of a funk. I forgot to feed Nate breakfast before I dropped him off at school and had to call and ask them to give him part of his lunch to eat in the morning. I was so embarrassed having to call and tell them I forgot to feed my child. Who does that? I won't bore you with the rest of my crappy day but it ended at 11pm with me attempting to finish a nap mat for Nate and accidentally sewing the bias tape to the edge of the whole thing but forgetting to add the blanket. I cursed loudly as I began to rip 5 feet of seam apart and then heard Nate crying. I thought I had woken him up but, it turns out, I had forgotten to put the kid's diaper on before bed and he woke up because he had peed. He was so upset like it was his fault. I comforted him, changed his clothes and bedding, and snuggled him until he fell asleep. I gave up on the day at that point and just went to bed.
Do you ever feel like your tiny failures as a mother add up to epic disappointments? I know I do. I will try to make today a better day. I will try to keep my patience in check when I am feeling beat down. I will try not to be so hard on myself. I will be better. They deserve it.
I think we all have days like this especially when we are mom's. Once I took my boys to one of our volleyball games and completely forgot the diaper bag... Ian hadnt eaten in hours so he was really hungry. I felt terrible.
ReplyDeleteI also was telling my husband just a few days ago how much I didn't want to mess up my kids. I'm so imperfect and we have so much responsibility. But I have to remind myself that God gave me these kids for a reason and I was suppose to do the very best I can do. :)
You're doing good momma, you are doing good! :)
You know these days are RARE, thankfully and at the end of the day you were there for him when it mattered most.
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I completely feel ya girl!!! Yes, I know exactly how you feel. At least you called to tell them you forgot!!! You could have let your pride get to you and made him wait till lunch. Your doing an awesome job and Nate will not be scared for the remainder of his life because you forgot to feed him breakfast. Your an awesome mommy and remember we all have these days!!!! Hope your having a better one!!! : )
ReplyDeleteWow Kam, it sounds like you need a bit of perspective....First of all, you are a great mother and I think you know that! Secondly, I think Nate will forgive you, ;) so stop worrying. Thirdly, (is that a real word, thirdly??) at least you can afford to feed your child on a daily basis, so be thankful for that! You are not living in a 3rd world country, earning barely a dollar a day while your children walk around without so much as a diaper on a regular basis!
ReplyDeleteDo you see what I am saying? Life could be worse and the teeny-tiny mistakes you may make, are really nothing to be overwhelmed with concern or guilt about. So buck up!
Love,
sarah
I'd say you could just look at that awesome photo of your two gorgeous babes and that would cheer you up, right? ;)
ReplyDeleteBut yes, I know, I've had days like that too. We all have as mothers since you know, we're only human. It's alright hon! I hope today is MUCH better! xo
Aww Kam. I know nothing makes it better so I don't have trite words for you. I can just empathize and say I'm sorry for a sucky day.
ReplyDeleteAnd I bet Natey doesn't even remember this. But he WILL remember the good things.
Dude. You KNOW you rock.
ReplyDeleteAll moms have these days, and Nate still loves you. The daycare KNOWS the real you, and they aren't thinking anything bad!
It happens to all of us. Here's hoping today was a better day for you!
ReplyDeleteWe ALL have those days! I hope today is much better!
ReplyDeleteAw. I hope you felt better after sleeping. Sleep can cure so many things. After a good night's rest, I often wonder what I was grumbling about the day or night before.
ReplyDeleteevery single day. EVERY DAY there is something little. Today it's that I totally forgot to buy something for my husband to eat for dinner tonight while meal planning, he's gone vegetarian for lent, I have nothing in the house he likes and..it's gonna be bad when he gets home and all I have to offer is a bowl of cereal.
ReplyDeleteYou are an amazing Mom. Period. No questions. No doubts.
ReplyDeleteI love you. I hope you were able to sleep off some of that frustration. Everyday is a new day, right?
L.
P.S. LOVE the shot of the kiddos! Amazing moment captured! I keep trying to figure out which window this in in your house....I'm guessing it must be in your room 'cuz I can't place it. Am I right?
We are the imperfect parents of imperfect children.
ReplyDeleteThere will be days when we will rock that parenting shit.
And other days when we won't.
There will be days when we want to be saturated in every moment.
And other days when we want to escape.
Oh, honey, days like that are just brutal. Hard to pick yourself up and just keep going after a beat down like that, isn't it?
ReplyDeleteI hope that your days have been infinitely better since then!
oh girl, you know i have those days. i am on meds because of those days, lol!
ReplyDeleteit's hard to find the strength to be patient and positive on those days, but we all muddle through and hope that the next day will be better.
just remember that you ARE a good mom. and that picture may be one of the cutest i've ever seen. frame it...is that the blanket nate sucks on? :-)
I've had tons of those days and it always helps me to remember that the most important thing is that I love those kids and that I'm trying. It could be so much worse in a million different ways! They won't remember the shortcomings, they'll only remember that you were always trying to do your best for them. :)
ReplyDeleteI hope you're out of your funk and back on the happy path!
The other night, Chad, Lilah, and I were happily eating dinner while Aidan finished a movie (since he never eats what we're eating.) It wasn't until Aidan was whining just before teeth-brushing that I realized he never ate dinner. I had completely forgotten about him. Ugh. It happens, I guess. But it doesn't make you feel like mother-of-the-year at that moment.
ReplyDeleteLove that picture!! Oh, if I could capture something like that with my two...
I hate to admit how often I feel like that, so I won't. Instead, I will tell you that I absolutely ADORE that photo. It is so freakin' precious!!
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